I Feel

Today

I feel okay.

I listen to my friends about their problems.

Give them advice and a loving hug.

The day comes and goes

A bump or two in the road

But I feel happy.

The second day

I feel doubtful.

I can’t listen to anyone,

As thoughts swirl like a hurricane is starting in my mind.

The day is slow, unbearable.

The road ahead of me splits into two.

I feel doubtful.

The third day,

I feel so god awful.

The thoughts are the only thing I hear.

Time doesn’t matter anymore.

The path no longer matters.

I want it to end.

I want everything to end.

The fourth day,

I wake up,

To my dogs barking at my Dad’s awful singing,

I look out the window,

Seeing the sun fully up in the sky,

blinding me.

I smile weakly.

I feel okay.

I am okay.

And then the cycle repeats.